the first sunday

had a bad night last night. i was hopping that today would never get here but it did. we also gave our pet away last night they went to a great home but they will be missed. we were unable to play with them like they needed to be so it was best.


today i got up and it hit me there was something wrong. at first i could not put my finger on it but when i did i felt really sad. I'm not really a church person thanks to my mom and dad but i really started to like going there i was learning things and for once i was not alone in class. i really like having J there with me, it was a lot of fun. but today i was really lost i did not know what to do with myself. but one good thing was we did have church at home i really liked having my hubby doing it. it was not really long but it was nice. after that we went to the park for some family time will was on the swing for the first time he had a great time. so did cam. he even got one girl to push him in the swing twice there were men there playing music that was really nice. we had lunch and let the kids play. they all had fun. we were leaving we saw 5 deer. i got some nice pics of them. one still had spots. i liked the park it was nice.

the one good thing in my life is my family. they are the best thing to ever happen to me. they love me for who i am and i love them the same way. i don't care what the church says it makes me happy and feel loved and is that not what god want for all of us? there are some people out there who never get the chance to a have that in there life's. I'm lucky to gave it in mine. my kids will never know a time of being lonely or unloved like i did as a child. they have the love of four parents in there life's and that's great.