what a week

this has been a week that i wish i could just start over. the Bishop wanted to see my hb we were hopping that it was just about this coming weekend but it was not. they fond out that we are apart of a polygamist family. so we were asked not to come to church until they have a chance to talk to others. i feel bad for my hb we both liked the church. i liked having someone to go to class with j was going and was going to be a part of the church but now she cant. i wish my mom and dad had taken me to church more when i was little i would know more now and i would not feel so lost when i do go to church.

i can understand why the church is upset but if they could see the good side of things. the first is that there is more moms to take care of the kids. there are a lot of families out there that when the kids get off school no ones home. in our home there will always be someone here for the kids. another is I'm not the only one taking care of the house and of the kids. i know who is watching my kids when I'm not home and when my sisters leave the house they know that there kids are in good hands. before i meet my hb i was alone for 15 years and when i meet my hb i told him that i did not ever want to be alone again. being in a family with more wife's I'm not alone even though I'm the stay at home mom i still have people around me. there is more love in this house than i have ever seen in a house were there was only a mom and a dad. i was an only child until i was 8 years old. my kids have kids they can play with and even learn from. i feel that all the kids in my home get all the love they need to grow and be happy in there life's. but all i can do is go on with what i feel right.